Ex Escape

Last night I had this very intriguing dream. I was in this huge beautiful kitchen that was outdoors. Odd I know, but I continue. The floors were marble, granite countertops, everything a modern kitchen would have- except there were no walls just the most awesome view into almost forest like area. The sun was shining through the tree tops just right, the leaves were in brilliant colors of red, orange, and yellows, the birds were chirpping faintly in the background. And then I hear a voice behind me. It was my ex-husband, but in the dream we were married again. I was at the counter fixing some coffee, and he came in mentioning something about umbrellas. I told him I thought it was such a nice morning out. It was a comfortable feeling, in the dream that is. It made me miss him. I get so angry with myself when I have dreams about us, about how things were. The dreams are never of the bad times, only of the good. Which makes it so hard to forget him. I miss our relationship sometimes. But then I remember... what drove me away.